Have you actually sat down and taken a good hard look at what you are seeking and whether it will make you happy? Perhaps make a list and see what you are seeking. Is it bringing happiness and fulfilment? Will it bring it in the future? Think about the steps it will take. If the goal has been met, has it been worth it?
If you took away all that you are seeking, how would that look?
What if you put away all that you seek, and lived for other people and organisations, for a better world?